7 am Michael will leave tomorrow morning.  The start of the first day of law school.  I packed his lunch.  He had a TM orientation today.  We had a gonzaga law night at the Spokane Indians game last night.  It was fun, and I fit a bit better than the TM pizzeria experience, but it was still awkward.  I think I learned a that I am incredibly jealous of this step Michael is taking and therefore jealous of everyone else.  I know that being at home with our boys and making life not stressful for Michael is my job right now, but it seems so much less glamorous than being a nurse at an clinic for underprivileged, or being the long distance girlfriend... and yet I really like my life so, I need to just outwardly like it.  I realized that up until now, I have achieved what Michael was working towards and I liked that I had, but now he moves on to something that I really want to do (grad school, not Law) and he can do it, he needs to do it right now, but it is not my time and yet I want it. 

Got really frustrated this morning when he got up late for church and I felt like I was doing it all myself getting the boys ready to go, etc...  need to sleep now.  Trying a new schedule to still get in workout and scripture time by myself before he has to leave.  Wish me luck...  wish him luck too, no one will drill me with the socratic method tomorrow.